I think yesterday (Thursday) was the rebound day that was needed after how rough Wednesday was for me. That’s the worst part of bipolar, especially when it’s paired with anxiety. There are the ups, and then there are the downs. I know you’re saying to yourself, that’s life. But – bipolar is about surviving life on a much sharper incline. And I’m feeling good today 🙂
Yesterday I was the recipient of one of the kindest acts I’ve ever received, and I think it is part of my bounce back. This person did something so kind and so unsolicited that it struck a really strong chord (this will sound extreme, but it’s true) in my soul. There is lots of good in the world. There are kind people, there are kind acts happening every day, and there are good things carrying forward every day.
I’m figuring out slowly but surely that part of my survival (along with the recipe that includes my medicine cocktail, my blog-therapy, my connection to a source of spirituality (I’m LDS and it’s very important to who I am) is finding the good out there. It helps me see that even when I’m having a dark day the sun in shining on other people in the world. My situation is not an all encompassing one, you know? As much as it does indeed feel like that when I’m in the midst of a depressive state, it does not shape the realities of the world around me. Again – there is still good happening in the world on an every day basis.
My happiness is rightly or wrongly the result of a strong day to day effort to see that good that is happening around me.
Music is good to me.
My job is good to me, and for me.
My family is very good to me, and for me.
My mental illness has been good for me. It’s given me the ability to see the world in a much sharper lens, and with eyes that I otherwise would not have been able to use. It helps me see the sun in greater contrast, so that (like I wrote about last) I can truly appreciate the sun when it does come out from behind life’s dark clouds.
Life can be good.
Life is good.
The sun is shining today – let’s go enjoy it.