Ever since I was put back in mid-February I have only been able to go to church three times – and only been there for Sacrament meeting at that. The medicines have brought out the most horrible side effects that we’ve already discussed, and I just haven’t been able to.
I miss it though. I’ve missed it every week I haven’t gone, and today where I 100% cannot go, I really miss it. Listen, I’m not a perfect Mormon. I’m not a perfect person. I’ve never pretended to be. Church is for those who need spiritual healing, not those who have achieved it already. I miss it, I miss it a lot.
My hope is that the next 24 hours are good to me from a medicine point of view so I can get out of here and go home. Then next Sunday, I will do everything possible to get to church for at lest the first hour. My new reality HAS to have church as a part of it.