Mentally and spiritually, early mornings are really some of my favorite times of the day. For some weird reason, I’ve started waking up in the mornings between 5:30 and 6:30 so I’ve had more than a few minutes to myself. Quite openly, it’s been delightful.
Spiritual peace doesn’t need to refer to a specific set of beliefs, just a time when you can be at peace with the next level of energy inside of you. For me, as a Mormon, that means that I feel peace coming from the Holy Ghost as I read the scriptures, listen to peaceful music, or listen to conference talks. It has made a huge difference in who I am and in how I deal with all of this.
I need spirituality in my life to continue to maintain and heal and grow in my post treatment life. There’s a reason that all the 12 step programs lean heavily on a higher power as a source of support: it works.
These quiet moments in my mind and heart make it all easier to deal with: the frustration from my bipolar existence, the anxiety I feel on a daily basis, the questions I have over my skills as a parent … these quiet moments give me a chance to believe in myself and my ability to be what I want to be instead of just what I’m limited to being.